I received your text today. It was heartrendingly beautiful in its simplicity and could have thawed the iciest of hearts...
"Missing you everyday".
However, let's be fucking realistic, shall we?!? Perhaps you wouldn't be missing me if you didn't suck so much as a human being and even more so as a boyfriend. I gave you FIVE MONTHS of my life. Five very long months of my life where I started questioning everything about who I was in order to please you. Where I bent over backwards to chance habits that displeased you, giving up things I loved like running at night (now I am screwed on Tough Mudder because I am starting from the beginning again). And yet it was never enough...
Somewhere we crossed a line, a barrier where I went from being your girlfriend to just an object, a plaything. I was disrespected repeatedly, and I blindly listened to your apologies that you no-showing me and various other slights would never happen again. But they did... And I accepted them. But lets get some shit straight:
- YOU WILL NEVER BE MORE IMPORTANT TO ME THAN MY DAUGHTER. NEVER! - To have you bitch and whine that I cut all contact with you after Valentines Day (and even before that) because I have focused on a daughter whose existence you chose to ignore, is not my problem. The fact you have a son and didn't mention him to me until after I called you out on it is damn near unforgivable. You expecting me turn my back on a child I have helped raise (to varying degrees) since she was 14, because you think five months of standing me up and pie crust promises is more important than a child I love no matter what is completely deluded. If you are so concerned, perhaps you should have made an effort to be there for us, rather than complaining about how I am paying more attention to her than to you. Your sudden concern now is patently obvious as a ploy to try to get back into my good graces. Oh and considering my daughter hates your guts, this relationship is dead in the water.
- "I CAME BACK TO YOU, AND YOU ARE GOING TO DISAPPEAR ON ME?!?" - Wait, pardon???? You coming BACK means you left in some way, shape or form. While it is pretty much unanimously agreed you are married or in a long term relationship which is why you were so damn dodgy about shit, I was never under the impression we "broke up" which would lead you to "come back" to me. Perhaps bleaching myself and scrubbing my skin off with steel wool is warranted, as apparently, you lied about your reasons for logging onto OkCupid 3-4 times a day. I guess you weren't just occasionally checking messages. You were going on there to meet and bang other girls. But I was expected to sit at home and wait for you to FINALLY decide you wanted to see me.
- "I THINK ITS REALLY FUCKED UP YOU ARE OUT WITH MATT GETTING DRUNK BUT YOU HAVEN'T BOTHERED TEXTING ME" - 1. I was getting drunk in the comfort of my own home WITH MY DAUGHTER watching the Dr. Who Christmas Special when I got your shit show of a message. 2. At what point does it matter if I WAS out with Matt? I AM NO LONGER DATING YOU! I could have been being railed live on Jamaican Pay-per-View by an entire country of Tibetan yak herders and you couldn't say SHIT about it.
- "YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M DONE. HAVE A NICE LIFE" - For someone who is done, you certainly seem to bother me quite frequently about shit.
Love,
Me