Cause I did it MY way...

I got this group of messages from someone I'd been seeing in May and who sat there basically insulting me when I shaved my head (as you recall, I didn't shave my head because I WANTED to, my HAIR was falling out). Unfortunately, Plenty of Freaks refuses to give me the messages I sent in reply. The replies were probably there for a bit, but I have been so focused this week on working with the rest of the amazing people who showed up to shield an American hero's family from those jackasses at the WBC, that I didn't bother to copy and paste this conversation until today.

From: j********8
Subject: Hi Sent Date: 1/17/2011 6:23:54 PM


mygod i finally found ya on this sh*tsite lol, i lost my phone and my contatcs hun, how u been and y havent u text me :( (Gee... 1. I didn't text you because you flat out said to me you HATE chicks with really short after I shaved my head. 2. You had a blackberry, and if you didn't sync it with your computer, you are fucking retarded. 3. It has been 7 months. I am not THAT hard to find so I call bullshit. Instead I kept it civil. I am firm believer in keeping myself under firm control in situations like this.)

From: j********8
Subject: RE:RE:Hi Sent Date: 1/18/2011 1:55:48 PM


U SHOULD HAVE DATED ME :( U JUST STOPPED TALKING TO ME AND FIGURED U DIDNT WANT TO BE BOTHERED WITH ME, AND IM SORRY U WENT THREW ALL THAT MESS, IVE BEEN DATEING SOME REAL WACKOES LATLY BUT NOTHING SERIOUS OR ANYTHING TO BRING HOME TO MOM, (Really. I should have dated you?!? Perhaps you should have mentioned that BEFORE you had insulted me. Actually, you told me you didn't WANT to date anyone and THEN treated me like shit because I shaved my head so I felt better about myself and stopped obsessively pulling my hair out. So fuck off and stop rose coloring everything between us. I saw you... twice, and I had a CHANCE to meet your parents and you chose to hustle me out of their house.)

From: j********8
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:Hi Sent Date: 1/18/2011 2:06:48 PM


AWSOME, I STOPPED DRINKING AND GAVE UP CIGS 6 MONTHS AGO, U NEED MY BIG OLE****AGAIN LOL, THAT WILL MAKE U BETTER :) (At this point I'd told him I'd stopped drinking and stopped smoking, and was training for a half marathon. And I believe I had mentioned the holding pattern I was in with the Biker Boy. Oh... and I mentioned the fact that I am not a particular fan of being touched right about now.)

From: j********8
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:RE:Hi Sent Date: 1/18/2011 2:19:37 PM


O WOW, AND THAT SWEIRD, U USED TO LOVE WHEN I TOUCHD YA, BUT U DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN HUN, I UNDERSTAND :( (You're right, I don't have to explain. But I did try. I am unbelievably stressed and I've been through a lot recently. What I chose not to tell him was that I decided, after receiving the 10-page long totally nasty email from my former best friend, that I am just going to focus on myself, improving where I am physically, mentally & emotionally. And I also decided that I was going to get rid of my "drug of choice" which was focusing on my friends problems and completely fucked lives so I don't have to worry about fixing my own life.)

From: j********8
Subject: RE:RE:Hi Sent Date: 1/18/2011 2:42:52 PM


OK HUN, SORRY IF I BOTHERED U THEN (I made the mistake of trying to assure him that it was nothing to do with him, and that it had everything to do with the shit I was put through by that douche bag I dated from MD and generally was trying to get my life together. And THIS is what I received...)

From: j********8
Subject: RE:RE:RE:RE:Hi Sent Date: 1/18/2011 2:57:20 PM


JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER GIRL I KNOW OR TALK TO, ITS COOL, I WONT BOTHER U ANYMORE I GET THE HINT (I chose NOT to reply, even though there was NOTHING I wanted more than to BLAST him for treating me like shit then expecting me to come RUNNING back when shit with south with whom ever it was that he was banging! Dude... Seriously. I really don't think that this would even be an issue. The only reason I put up with Biker Boy's bullshit for the past 6 months is because I was truly HAPPY when I was with him. I never felt self conscious, in fact, BB made me feel like I was the hottest girl he'd ever seen. My only issue with him is that I feel like I will never actually be his girlfriend, and honestly? I am going to concentrate on whatever it takes to make me happy. Right now, just being me, and doing my own thing makes me happy.)

"No matter where I stand... I'm alone"

(Sorry. TOTAL Manowar moment, anyhow...) I got this in a message (the ONLY thing in the message actually) onPlenty of Freaks. While dude gets mad creativity points, he loses all of them (and then some) to the fact he looks like a 70's era wanna be Burt Reynold's dressed up like a sort of scary suburban cowboy and due to the content of the poem (or what EVER the fuck this thing is!?!).

Let me take you hold your body in my arms
Kissing those tender lips long and deep
Can you Feel my passion rise
Let us make love all through the night
Quickly decide, we must not waste a minute of time
Deftly remove all my clothes
Slowly I begin to caress your soft skin
My fingertips start to wander
Feeling the softness of you
Those tender breasts draw my fingers to them
Touching and stroking them
Covering your body with kisses
Over the curve of the breasts
Slowly reaching the nipples peak
Sucking with greedy abandon
The heat of our bodies rapidly rising
Breathing starts to increase
Panting harder wanting you now
Your body inviting
Moulding itself into mine
Thighs parted anticipating
Requesting my body’s presence
Obligingly I settle between them
Connecting to you
So slowly at first bodies moving in time
Reaching deeper into the depths of passion
Increasing the rate of heated attack
Faster rapier like movements
Lust consuming us both
Animalistic instincts taking over
Both wanting our own pleasure
Minds blocked to all other thoughts
Oh the passion
Faster we ride our primeval lust
Peaking explosively together
Tasted the essence of passion
Screaming my name in orgasm
Your body bucks with mine
We are as one, engulfed in each other greyicewolf

And PLEASE allow me to note, since I hadn't actually bothered to read all of that until i was formatting the blog... That shit reads like a bad Romance NOVEL! Really... there is NOTHING romantic or sexy about that. Maybe if it was hand-written in a super romantic setting, MAYBE! By some strange guy on the creepiest dating site since Ashley Madison? Yeah... not so much!